3.5.06
losing faith..
im starting to lose faith in our relationship..i still loves him alot..yes i do..is it coz im too willful..? too sturborn..? asking too much of a freedom..? too sensitive..? i really dunno..someting in here is nt working out..
y d u haf to control me till so tite..i can hardly breath..i know u love me..but i cant even hang out w my frenz till late..!? come on..im not young u know..im not tat weak u know..gimme a bit more freedom..is tat asking too much..? if u r really tat worried abt me..y dun u pick up my phone when i called u when i got home..? aint u worried i call u for help..? aint u worried tat i got into trouble..? aint tats wat u r looking out for..? hoping tat i really got into trouble..so u can say "serve u right!"?
i cant read ur mind..i dunno wat u're tinking..i dun even know hw u tink anymore..it scares me..it really does..its like i dunno u anymore...............=~(
it alls started off so nice n beautiful..but..i dunno..things doesnt seems to be working out nowadays..especially im nw reaching such a critcal stage of my life..my career is rite in my front of me..i need support..family..friends..n him..
my friends..i dunno..outcast..? yes/no..? coz of him..? i dunno..i know they still cares for me..but a way of another..tings somehw is nt da same anymore..sometimes they'll go out w/o me knowing..coz they know i'll be going out w him..? i dunno..sometimes it jus hates to know they dun jio u all da times despite da best of friends..is it jus me..??
its true u know..when they say tots starts to wonder when u have alot of time..u jus cant help to tink alot..
Posted by dotsux at 5/03/2006 12:03:00 am